Thursday, September 18, 2008
ytd was super inefficient... only managed to get half a chpt done... i also duno y... but when im in my friend's company, i just cannot finish my studying... all my fault... i called my friend out cux i seriously was dozing off while trying to study myself... im like so irritated with myself...
anyways, my situation... i also duno wad im thinking now... it's like i feel wasted if totally draw a clear line but yet i know myself at least for my part, it's pretty much concluded... i nvr knew tt i could be tis fast... totally letting go in just a few mths... e things tt i do now are more of a play-along thingy... but im just afraid, the more i play-along, e higher the chance that i might just fall into the deep hole again... i seriously duno wad to do... i duno... it's just tt i have things tt i still pretty much am concerned with and it will nvr happen for me so why am i still clinging on to it?!?!? i really duno... isit more of a "used-to-it" feeling or isit just me being weak and afraid to break the news thing... i really duno... i mean i really do treasure and feel happy when i look back at the things tt happened but then everything is just so different now! i really kinda hate myself... but wad can i do?! someone help me...
thr was a part on gossip girl in which when S and lonely boy were trapped in the lift and they decided to trash things out and when the lift was back to normal, S said tt she's afraid to step out of the lift cux everything will b done with and different once she steps out of tt lift... and when the lift door closed after she stepped out, she said "I love you"... tt part... really touched me... it's like u know tt u still like tt person yet u gotta let go cux thr r too many things in between the both of u... so drama.. haahas... i tink i watch too much of these shows alr... better dun let it get into my head.. scarly like sherry like tt... dream of funny things... hahas... =p... sherry's dream was like the most bizzare thing tt someone could dream of and when i told shihao abt it... he also couldn't stop laughing... sherry thanks for brightening up our day but at your expense!! hahas... =p
i tink i seriously shd just start a diary... mayb... n i shall start tonite... hahas... let's wait and see...
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